Well, today was the day. I sent the message. Who knows whats gonna happen now? After I got thru bathing, I just sat in the shower & let the water run on me, & closed my eyes. Calmed myself down & took me to my place of freedom where I was by myself. No problems, no nothing. I sat there about an hour. It made me less nervous but at the same time it made me somewhat brace myself you could say for the hurt. Just in case things didnt go my way, I wouldn't be as disappointed becuz I prepared myself mentally & emotionally. Maybe he'll reply back...who knows? Maybe he'll see where Im coming from...who knows? Maybe he'll close this chapter & move on with his life without me...who knows?