Each person has no need to be trusted. I keep trying to believe that everyone has or deserves a chance. Guess i'll be wrong. I was wrong for trusting the both of you. It hurts like hell. True I lost trust in both of you & in the end Im the one with the tears, Im the one with a new fear, I layed it out on the line, & Im the one who's gonna be struggling on my grind. True enough you made me cry, shit that hard surprise. But Im gonna be fine, when that one day that angel inside of me is gonna learn to fly.

LOVE...I use to. Now, I prefer to be alone. I feel as though if I can't have who I want then there is no need to settle & regretting it later. I enjoy my company too much for me to "settle" for anyone. I have plenty of ppl who wanna date me. The fact of the matter is, Im not going to do. Falling in love takes time, its just not handed to you. That means alot of hard work, alot of effort, alot of tears, alot pain. I dont wanna do it no more. So I figure I will stay on the #TeamOfMe. Who knows me better than myself?

It seems as though my happiest moments are when Im alone (single). I just try to make the best out of things, breathe I believe. I can't help but to just think what it would be like if we dated...but Im dealing with it. Can't find anyone to measure up to you so I'd rather be alone. Fear is what stopped from telling you how I feel, what could have been, what actually should have been. But, Im working on me...#WorkInProgress

I feel good today. You know, after everything I put myself thru, each tear, each heartache, I still manage to be myself. In the mist of it all, I smile. Sitting up here listening to Kirk Franklin made me realize that I have been missing something in my life. No its not a person, not a material item, but God. Yeah, I believe in him but I haven't prayed in a while. Thats why it seemed like my life was catching hell. When in reality, it was a thinkman of my imagination. Im not gonna give up, cuz I look so much better when I smile. Im finally crying, not becuz Im sad, but becuz I learned a lesson & it was worth it. Also becuz Im finally happy with myself & hopefully I can keep this going for myself.

Someone asked me today "Are you in love?" ...my answer, I was...once. Even tho the person I loved never felt the same for me, it didn't stop me from feeling for them. They made my eyes open up to things that I knew couldn't be true. They helped my grow, taught me how to not be afraid to show who I am...or how I feel. It made me a stronger, better, wiser person & taught me its okay to let down your guard to certain people. Even tho we aren't dating, even if we 100 miles apart, I can never forget what you taught me. Even tho we are close friends, even tho your name was heartbreak, you will always & forever be here....in my heart.

Today was good. Laughed at them ppl at school today. Just came outta my element today. Started back socializing like I use to. I didn't let my emotions from last night interfere with my day. Guess I had accepted. I think Im making the right decision by you, intrusting you with my friendship. Can't afford to get hurt again. Im growing, & like most things that grow, Im maturing. Learning that everything that glitters, isnt gold. Everybody isn't what they say they are. & your friends, in this lifetime are a limited few. Hopefully you dont let me down, #Heartbreak.

I've had the best day today. Signed some papers, talked to my best friend...but where am I at the end of the night? Sitting on the couch, listening to "Where you at?" feeling sad; trying my best not to cry. Haven't cried in a while. Idk why I cry when I have your friendship. Its just one of them nights of regrets I guess. It wasn't meant for us to be together, I'll have to accept that. Then the point it, you'd never know how I feel becuz I never told you how I felt. & maybe if I did, that would have ruined the friendship of which Im trying to build with you. I mean its strong, & I want it to stay that way. So once again, suck it up Marco, everything is not meant to be. Live, learn, patience, grow.

I'm just trying to grow. Tears, escape from my face as I try to understand what is missing from my life. I thought that I wanted friendship from you but I guess I still wanna be more. I'm not just gonna barge in your life tho. Keep my feelings hidden & settle with what I got. My feelings mean something but you in my life means more. Mixing how I feel with friendship is just a fail I guess. Last time we talked, I felt tension. You say nothing was wrong, but hell...I feel your lying. Just wished we could talk about it; guess not. One day, i'll have the courage to say "Chris, i've liked you from day one. Etc etc etc". Then I woke up...becuz I know that Im just dreaming becuz for one I will never tell you how I feel & two your happy...thats all that matters. I stand in my friendzone to the side

Hmph. Not gonna lie, it cross my mind what could have been. My life, I have every material thing that is avaliable. Spoiled rotten, but yet it dont mean shit cuz I dont have you. I guess Imma have to settle for someone else. They said patience is what gets you what you want. Im so use to shit being handed over to me that I really cant deal with anything different. This is one thing that can't be handed to me. This is one vertue that I have to learn from. I can take us being friends, its the part of being more that gets me. I'll always have a place for you...but I have to let you be happy with him while I, well I just live on & see what happens.

I sit here...thinking. I kinda miss him but hey, Im trying to be in the friend zone. I thought that if I would have start talking to other people that it would help me cover the fact that I like him, alot. I mean, there are some dudes, some sexy ones at that, that really just make me wanna be with them. Truth of the matter is, everytime I think i've moved on...I really didn't. We all play that role, the "friend role". Thats when you say "We can be friends" but you know deep down that you have feelings for them but your willing to do anything to keep them in your life. I like that your boyfriend makes you happy, he's a really cool dude & earns much respect from me. Guess its just one of them days that I learn a lesson, take a breather, & try to move foward.

I wanna title this one Self Portrait. Its a reflection on me. I'm doing well...no stress just breathing for a change. I talked to my friend Letty last night. She always down for me...even if I think deep. I learned to live my life freely. Think outside the world & not inside like everyone else. I learned that its okay to love...& maybe not so hard to trust someone. Well, it is kinda hard to trust someone but i'll build on it. Im just feeling neutral. I have to admit that I do have my days where I feel a little down, but dont we all. I just try to maintain myself but one day, just one...Im gonna learn to grow. I love who I am, Marco Ashton Morrow

Ha, we been through alot thru this friendship. #Acceptance, I finally accepted that you & I will always be friends & that your in love, long as your happy...I am. These conversations we been having lately have been amazing. Learning so much about a good friend. Then, you texted me first this morning. Haha, that really made my day. This book of Heartbreak has so many chapters to be told. It may have its twist & turns, its downfall & demise, but in the end, what friendship is perfect? Exactly, none. So yeah, Marco is happy for the time being. Hopefully, maybe one day. :)

Sometimes I really dont have to speak my mind & I really don't wanna tell you how I am digging you so, I can't let go, & it hurts me to my soul. I tell you every little thing that is on my mind, I cant let you know so I hide it inside. All my feelings for you, dont want you to let it go to your head. Im mean to you sometimes but I cant get you off my mind, so I hit you with the game always trynna act like yo loving doesn't phase me when the truth is that it amaze me...