One year anniversary...

Today was okay. I wasnt really planning on spending the day with the family but my mom suggested I did. I went over my aunt already with my I righteously dont give a fuck attitude. They say throughout my teenage years I was never rebellious, but they say I waited til now to be rebellious. Change...maybe I'm just not the same Marco I used to be. Maybe, maybe I just grew up and learned to be smarter and wiser with my heart. Anyways, while over my aunt house I made it perfectly clear I didnt wanna be there at first. I kept saying lil fly shit like "Ughh I'm ready to go home!" lol Im so mean. Anyways...ate and dipped. Came home...now peace and quiet. Man, memories circled my damn head. A year ago was the first time I talked to HB on the phone. We had so much fun. I started crying like a minute ago but its apart of the process I guess. Tomorrow will be the first time he called me...GO Figure. I tweeted him like last Thursday and Friday and we talked all day :) we suppose to meet up in Philly and see each other next month so lets see how this goes. Gotta drop like 20 pounds before I go because I feel like i've gained and modeling is not gonna have that...anyways gotta go Soul Food on. Happy Thanksgiving readers

Angel in Disguise

This blog is from November 22, 2011...

    Today was the worst day ever...but its cool. I had to walk in the pouring rain all the way from Ensley al the way back to Fairfield. My new sweater was soak & wet along with my pants and new shoes. I called my mom to come pick me up but she didnt answer. I called my aunt to come & she sent me to voicemail...#GoFigure. Right now I righteously dont have shit to say to any Morrow except my grandma and great uncle. The rest I could give two shits about because I realized today that in this world you only have yourself. You came alone and you'll leave alone. Anyways, while I was walking home, a lady...I think her name was Ms. Isiah stopped me & made me come in her home. She gave me some clothes, shoes, and a new jacket to put on so I wouldnt catch a cold. Offered me some coffee and all. The nicest person I've ever met...kinda reminded me of my great grandma. I call her an angel because no one shows southern hospitality anymore. I will never forget her. Gotta go pick her up a christmas gift. They say good things come to those who do good things...guess today was my turn.

Why I?

This blog is from November 21, 2011...

     Trying some new by writing in a journal...that is because I dont have internet anymore which throws off my blogging. Anyeays things have changed. With my great grandma's death a year ago I really dont have anyone to talk to anymore because no one understands me like her. She understood everything I went thru. Then my great aunt death this year. Go figure huh...school is really stressing me out because I dont have much support. Never did I know that your family could be so downing tho. They call themselves "keeping it real/100" but in the end they aren't. I really just wanna move & start fresh. Tired of the same ol drama. Today, I learned that one of my aunts are faker than the horse in Beyonce's head. My mom lied on me (which made me 38 hot.) Never have I lied on my my mom so when she did me it pissed me the hell off. Anyways, I'm out...

Realization

So in still in Georgia. Im sitting here on the couch texting my sister Maurii an somehow H.B. gets moved into the conversation. I tell Maurii everything, but I failed to tell her why me and HB had stop talking a long time ago and became back friends. I told her the story and she was like omg I never knew any of this. Lol guess it hit her just as bad as me. Like she really felt my pain which I think she did. We're talking about the situation now and she's basically like you two should just talk and tell each other how you feel. (She really wants me to best friends with him) I feel like the more days I spend thinking on the idea of trying to talk to him the more harder I'm gonna have to work to get back to that close friend zone. #CantWinFromLosing

Recieving the Pieces Of Me

They say God works in mysterious ways....ways that we dont quite get at that point in time but when we sit down, take the time, and open our eyes we see shit thats actually been sitting infront of us. I wasnt aware of what was infront of me until it actually walked away. Lately i've been doing good. Been putting that extra effort into my school work that I've need (Thats why I havent been blogging much #CantWinFromLosing). So far I'm still single. . . & not looking at all. Lol. I mean dealing with another partner while in school is basically a set up for failure. With me getting a modeling internship, taking care of my grandma, and going to school. . . I doubt if I have time for anyone and their drama. This week me and my sister Maurii were in the library at the school and she did the most funniest, sneakest, sly thing ever. We were sitting there writing out our rough drafts for class and I showed her HB profile on twitter. She was like "Do I follow him?" I was like "Idk who you follow on your damn twitter! lol" So without me looking she clicks follow on her phone and then she tweets him "Aye sexyy, can I buy you a pepsi?" Keep in mind now I'm still on my grind doing this paper. She just tweeting him away on her profile. So she starts back writing her paper and she told me to text her boyfriend that she was still writing out her paper from her phone. I grabs her phone and she left it on twitter so Im going thru her mentions and they been having a full convo...about me! Lol. Okay so she was like "You want a diet or regular pepsi?" and he replied Regular. So she was like "Cool, i'll have my brother bring it to you." he was like who's your brother? (Keep in mind me & Maurii looks nothing alike) she was like Marco! He was like oh wow. Then she replied let me stop before he finds out and kill me (She knows me oh so well!) Lol, he was like LMAO why? She was like long story, just knows that he still cares about you and that your always on his mind. This part coming up is what really made my day...when he was like "Awww Really? :') " She was like yeah you two should talk soon. . . and so on and so on. I'm just happy that he knows that i'll never forget. . . even if we are just friends that fine with me. I just gotta learn how to face my fears and start back communicating with him before he thinks I disappeared on him and dont really give a fuck. But anyways, right now Im in my room at our house in GA. Cant wait to go back home to Bama tomorrow even tho I gotta come right back here in 2 weeks...by then I should have some good outcomes. #Hopefully...anyways #Shoutout to my followers that read my blog. Its been breezy but I'm finna hit up a cup of Verdi and Passion Fruit Juice and tweet until I fall asleep. Until the next blog...#Dueces