Good morning peeps! Starting my new chapter in life! Going thru the #DoinME phase. Gotta keep on my grind and not let anything/anyone phase me. Yeah it does seem a lil selfish but who gives a damn. Im slowly changing into my alter ego Marco. I express myself freely with no regrets, no matter consequences and peoples feelings. And guess what, NO MORE TEARS SHED #POW lmao! Im getting myself ready for the new year and bringing in with a BANG. I made new friends this year and hopefully they still be here, if not, oh well! 2011 is gonna be my stress free and breakthrough year. Keeping my prorities first, or at least I'll try. Got a list of goals, but only my friend HB know and thats about it ya dig?!?! Lmao! Anyways, Imma start blogging more so be prepared for some crazy shit from me lol! Until then this is #CruciallyMarco and Im OUT!

You ask me why I said I mean what I say to you most of the time? Im not gonna lie to you, I have issues with getting close to ppl. I mean, I feel as if I get to close to you, one day your gonna find someone new and up and leave. As much as I want you to stay, I cant make you. If I told you Im going nowhere, chances are Im not gonna go. You say you care about me, but do you care enough to stay in the run with me. Im not perfect, not gonna potray like I am. All I ask is for you to come with me on this journey called LIFE. Just hang in their with me. I cant make you, but maybe I can convince you. #2crucial

Good morning ppl! Couldnt sleep for nothing last nite. Everytime I tried, I end up waking up crying. I played ''Long Way Down'' by Keyshia Cole most of the nite. The thought of them probably not talking to me again kinda hurt, but I was concluding. I was actually scared to tweet them this morning, or even text them. It just seem like an awkward moment, and I dont want it to be. The guilt is making my head hurt. I wanna help, but is it my place to? I just wanna help them get over their issues, not asking them to be the perfect person, but I wanna take some of that stress off them. Tears are actually filling my eyes while Im typing this blog. I just want closure, #thatsit. I loving being around them, cuz I kinda sorta know how they are. They just go thru alot of bullshit and are hurt to the point it bothers me sometimes. Even though they tell me not to care so much, I cant help it. And I swear this song totally relates to us. Lol! Back to my serious moment, I really just need closure. If I didnt care about you, I really would not have stayed for 6 whole months. You know I can actually see them attempting to get over their ex's, it just take time which I am willing to stay and wait. Until later, this has been #2crucia

Tonite I think I made a mistake. I think I hurt someone that I really care about. I didnt mean to, I really thought I was helping. Intense conversations can lead to many tears and deep feelings being can occur, which happened tonite. I just wish that I could take it back, but I can't. I cried tonite, which usually don't happen to me. I guess cause I got my emotions and love mixed in for them too deep. I really care alot and hate to see them get hurt by anyone. I just wanna avoid this whole dilema, but it still sits here haunting me. My only thought is, do they still care for me? Regardless to how they feel, Im still gonna love them. I believe that I have a purpose in their life, and I believe it is to show them what love is and show them that someone really cares about them. If they are reading this, I truly apologize and hope we can get past this. I just wanted to help you. In the words of Keyshia ''When I said I was through with love, there you were, saying that you saw my SOS'' and thats what I was trying to do. #MuchLove #2crucial

The 2_crucial Forum: Lil Kim and Nicki Beef

The 2_crucial Forum: Lil Kim and Nicki Beef: "Wassup ppl! So as you all may know, Nicki Minaj (The Pink Barbie) and Lil Kim (The Original Barbie) have recently been having beef. Now wo..."

Lil Kim and Nicki Beef

Wassup ppl! So as you all may know, Nicki Minaj (The Pink Barbie)  and Lil Kim (The Original Barbie)  have recently been having beef. Now word around twitter is that Nicki was dissing Kim in song "Romans Revenge" (avaliable on Pink Friday). Now that is a bunch of bull. The feud started between the late Original Barbie and The Pink Barbie in June 2010 when the self-proclaimed “original Barbie” called in to Kendra G’s radio show on Philadelphia’s “Philly 100.3 the Beat” to discuss the beef brewing between herself and the Young Money femcee. Kim told Kendra that she only wanted one thing from Nicki and this whole beef could have been avoided. During the phone call, Kim said “All females that come in the game, we need to stick together but what happens is they come in the game and realize that I’m not going away and my fans are still here and that they can’t just step over me. Then they kind of like get upset and they don’t want to be my friend anymore. I think that that’s really childish, you know. All I ask for is respect and I show you the same respect and that you pay homage at the end of the day. A lot of things go on behind the scenes that a lot of people don’t know about and it will be aired out because you can’t hide the truth..."

Recently The Pink Barbie, Nicki, released her debut album "Pink Friday" on November 19, 2010. It is said after that when the cd was released that Lil Kim became pissed because of the whole beef. Due to the controversy going down on twitter, the situation has gotten way outta hand. Lil Kim, being the baddest in the land, had to release her diss about Nicki Minaj entitled "Black Friday". In my opinion, I believe this is a publicity stunt. I mean look at the time frame now, Nicki releases Pink Friday, the beef gets worse when Lil Kim release her diss. Quite frankly I like both of the women , because if you state the facts, Kim did make a foundation for Nicki. But the hip hop world is full of mysteries so, WHO KNOWS!

Who Ever Knew

Wassup ppl! I know usually Im talking about issues with others lol, but tonite imma talk about me. Recently I been talking to someone who was seeing someone. So just like a month ago almost they broke up and the person I been talking to, we decided that we were gonna remain close friends even though I wanted more. After talking to them for a good lil mintue and being teased by my crazy ass friends, I finally got them digits! Even though I got the number I never start texting it, we just kept our convos on twitter and facebook. Recently this week, lmao yall gone be ROTFL but I had a dream about me and this person and decided to share it with them. The response behind it was actually shocking. I was expecting a CTFU or Nigga Please, but what I got was a Lmao, I never knew. After multiple texting, we finally told each other how we felt which in my opinion was odee deep. I mean the things that were said was like "Are you serious, why I never knew". So now we talking in "That Way" lol and hopefully we will be dating soon. Like I said in the title, WHO EVER KNEW!

Too Much Drama

Smh! Many people on twitter have turned it from a social network into the hook up spot. Apparently now you have to be more careful who you tweet or else there is gonna be some ish. This is no lie lmao! I dont understand if someone is your ex, and they tweet your best friend in a friendly way, why you gots to trip. Apparently our friendship must not have been strong enough or you have trust issues and not with your friend, BUT YOURSELF. If your over someone, it really doesn't matter who are what they do. And then on top of that, you argue down your best friend talking about they potrayed your trust, but you wont tell them how. Smh, we are too grown for drama. #2crucialout

Turning Dreams Into Reality

Last night I had a dream about you, keyword Dream. I realized that this dream will be hard to come by speaking that your dating someone. I just wondered, why not us? Why couldnt we just have, #tried? Maybe, its because I haven't open up to you enough. I cant afford to get my heartbroke in a situation, getting to attached. But its seems like the more I push myself back, the closer we get. If only you knew how I fell! #2crucial

Dealing with a Complicated Relationship

Talking to someone while they having a complicated relationship with someone else can be hard. It has its up's and down's. While your trying to start a "relationship" with this someone, it seems as though its taking them forever to break up with that one person. Kinda make you feel like a sideline hoe, and Im pretty sure no one wants to feel like that. If your like me, the more you wait, the more you want, then your in a good field. They say good things are worth waiting for, right? But sometimes, you can get hurt in the process. The person you like might still like the other person. Seems difficult huh? All I can say is, if your up for it, keep the game going! #2crucial

Hiding Yourself: From Someone You Like

Most people feel as though hiding their feelings from the one they care about will keep them from getting hurt. I feel as though this therory is wrong. If you hide yourself from them, how will they know what not to do, say, act, etc. Its a thing called a risk, and you have to be willing to take them when dating. From my personal experience, hiding yourself is how you can get hurt. When you open up some, then you give them a little lead way on what your buttons are so they wont press the wrong one. But dont open up too much, because thats how you can also get hurt as well.

Is This Finally A Comeback For Ciara!?!?

Ciara Princess Harris b.k.a Ciara is finally making a comeback album after her last album Fantasy Ride (2009). The title of this new album in the making is Basic Instinct and is due to release December 14, 2010. The producer, The Dream, says this should be a show stopper album for all Ciara lovers. She recently released a new song off her album "Gimmie Dat" which is, in my opinion, "The ish"! Many people that I follow on twitter agree that Ciara has indeed came back and is hitting strong with this song. Her other song released "Ride" featuring Ludacris also was a showstopper. Even though BET banned the video for its explicit content, many people watched it on youtube.com and still loved it. The original due date for the album was suppose to be sometime in August, but it was pushed back for reasons only Jive Records know. Hopefully this album will become a big success!

Finally Telling Someone You Have Feelings For Them

Now a days, many people are afraid to tell that "special someone" that their digging them, but I dont blame them, rejection can some times be a BITCH. When telling someone you have a crush on them, there's a 50% chance they will say "Oh really, I was feeling the same way" where as there is another 50% chance that they will say " I'm sorry, but I just dont feel the same". Getting that reply can sometimes devistate you because in your mind you feel as though is not fair. I believe thats its harder to tell your best friend that you like them than it is a stranger. My reasons behind this is because with a stranger, you can be like " I have a crush on you" and if you happen to face rejection, most likely you will move on to the next and think nothing else about it. Whereas with your best friend, its already difficult to tell them and then on top of that if you face rejection, there's probably a 20% chance that your friendship will slowly drift apart. This doesn't happen very often as long as you act like it didn't phase you. Most people are afraid to tell because they feel as though it might hurt the chances of them staying friends. I had a situation similar to this, but it didn't affect our friendship at all, it actually brought us closer in my opinion. So if you have feelings for someone don't hide them, push to what you want. Until next time, this has been #2crucial with the #2crucialforum! Thanks for reading! #Dueces!

Is it too soon to have sex on the first date?

Many people ask "Is it okay if I have sex on the first date?" I figure this, Are you ready to have sex on the first date? Most people feel as though if they have sex on the first date, they will be listed as stereotypes such as a whore or slut. I mean ignore it, I'm pretty sure the people that are calling you that have indeed done it themselves. From my point of view, I feel as though its certain times when its okay to have sex on the first day. For example, say you just met this person at the club like a couple of hours ago and you take them back home with you and lay it down. #STOP that's when its not okay! Now if you met this person at the club a few days ago, and you guys have been talking for a couple of days and your digging their vibe and liking their style, its exceptional only if you can see yourself being with them after the situation. Myself personal have never had sex on the first date, I find it to be scandalised. I dont want to hit it and quit it, but that doesn't mean I'm against it. If you do decide to have sex on the first date, dont bring out your best sex moves lol! I mean what will they have left to imagine if you done showed all the moves in the bed lol! Come on now! This has been #2crucial and I'm out!

Fake Tweeters (Lives)

Recently I have noticed on the popular website twitter.com that many of their users have started these fake #imaginary life stories. Things such as "Living The Rich Life Is So Fab" but yet, your struggling and getting hit by the recession harder than most of us. I see it as, why do you have to lie about your life? Its truly unessecarry and quite frankly very childish. Most people start trying to struggle to be including in there #twitterlives. I see it as, no one knows what you are doing unless you tweet it. Correct? Until next time, this has been the #2crucialforum thanks for reading!


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