Lol Alter Ego . . .

LMAO, Hey Bloggers/Readers. Today is a great day. Great day outta many. Right now Im on the phone with my daddy...for the first time. He is so funny ... like he act just like me. We crack jokes & everything. Like me & him been on the phone for almost 2 hours and some. I did this without my mama which was a shock to me. He telling me like everything that he went thru when he found out my mama was pregnant. He actually told me that he was the one to tell me that my mama was pregnant but she didnt believe me. He use to walk like miles to see my mom before and after she got pregnant. Idk that he considered my mom his first everything. His first true love, etc. I'm like wow, there was really some history there. The part that killed was when he said my mom was the one that broke his heart. I cant believe that she did that tho...anyways I see where I get my whole attitude from and everything. Straight from him, but I get my looks from my mom tho. Good looks & brains ...double combo. I really have enjoyed my night so after this phone call, headed to the fucking bed. Goodnight tho :)

Shit Keep Happening Tho...

Hey everyone...today just been long. The same ol same ol. Work & classes. Anyways so my dad has really been trying to get into my life. He texted me and was like what you doing and I was like walking around. He was like oh well I wanted to see you...Im not meeting him no where unless my mother is around real talk. I have always been a huge mama's boy but this some shit I cant do without her.*sigh* anyways, it sucks that I dont have anyone to talk to. Like my sister is all busy with her girlfriend & my friend too busy obessing about his boyfriend. . . oh and D.C. too busy trying to mack on someone that he knows that I wanna talk to tho. Smh, like I been talking to this dude like always but I told D.C. about him...it seems like everytime I tell him about a dude he tries to make a move on them. This shit cant be good for my life so maybe he's just one of them ppl that I cant associate with. . . right now Im listening to Olivia - Walk Away. I can relate to this so much becuz at the end of the day...I wanna walk away from all my problems but I dont know where to start.

How do you know...

Hey bloggers/readers. Today was another long and productive day. Class & work as usual. I remember how last night I was so bumbed out about my dad not calling me but I maintained my day regardless to the selfish act let alone which he afflicted on me. Anyways, I got in touch with this dude named Michael who I use to talk to since like last June. We use to message everyday and then we stopped becuz we skyped everyday. Then he vanished and to be honest I thought about him for like a whole month before I concluded that he was just there for that moment being. I was wrong...he messaged me on skype and we talked and caught up. How do you know when you caught the right one? Is it the one that makes you smile the whole time your talking to them? The one that you have extreme close contact with? The one that takes you somewhat outta your element but you feel comfortable with them becuz its the only person you'd do it for? Thats the way I feel when I talk to him...but Im gonna jump the gun with him. Just take it slow like I been doing but I have a strong feeling...this maybe it. Anyways, my dad wrote me on facebook and gave me his number. So I called him but he didnt answer...Im kinda sorta over it now. Im not finna chase behind no person that doesnt conflict with my level. If God wants it to be then I know it will happen. As my great grandma use to say, "When yoru tired of carrying on an extra burdon, take it to God & leave it." From this point...Im leaving it to him. Im starting to become more active as far as God goes tho. I include him in alot of things now but ayee I'll always have my faith. Until next time...dueces

You Failed Me Again...

All my life I always prayed to God that he'd let me one day be blessed to meet my day. Even if it wasnt face to face i'd accept it. Tonite I guess he decided to answer my prayer. My mother came over and told me his name on Facebook. I added him & to be honest I wasnt planning on him to accept it. But he did tho...I commend him for that. My mom told me to message him and tell him that I was his oldest son. So I did...he replied and was like wassup man ! then he told me to call him. Now he knows damn well that I dont have his number. So I replied back expecting him to reply back with the number...no show. So a hour later, I decided to send him my number...no call. Once again, he let me down. You'd think someone that claims to be your father would somewhat attempt to participate in their son life. Guess I'm a none fucking factor dealing with his. . . but the other 3 kids are. Oh and lets not forget to mention his wife. I guess its alright. Im going to do like one of my followers told me to do tho, Don't trip on people that let you down its pointless just smile and think about all those that love you to bits. On this note, another chapter closed in my life and hopefully I will never have to open it again...dueces.

Deja Vu

Hey fellow readers/bloggers. Today was a  long & productive day. Had class & work today. Smh, steady on my grind. Anyways, my friend sent me a text this morning that he was finna send to his boyfriend. Like, when I seen it..it kinda sorta reminded me of the shit I use to send to HB. I was like no bueno. I wanted to tell my friend that he was basically going down the wrong path. I mean, I know that shit ends up in different ways but I just couldnt understand what he was doing in that message. So, I forwarded to my sister LaVee. She was basically like man I cant read this. This shit kinda reminds me of the stuff you use to send to HB and we see how that went. He's basically seeking attention becuz he feels like he's losing his boyfriend best intrest at heart. Therefore, I dont know what to say to him. Am I really doing right by him by not saying nothing? I mean I warned him at first...he just didnt take heed to my warnings so therefore idk where to take this no more...

Back To Me :)

Ummm...lets see where to start. I've been doing well for myself. 2012, its my year so far. I mean Im doing great in school, keeping up with the family, & getting along with frankly everyone. I have been growing my hair out lol...shit is a disater now. Anyways, I got some new group of friends since one of mine has a boyfriend and everytime we talk on the phone he always disregard what I say and talk about him all the time. D.C. talking to someone now and basically he's turning into one of my sisters becuz he puts a nigga before me....smh. My sister LaVee has a girlfriend now & quite frankly Im glad too. She really deserves it man. Me & HB are cool now...I finally have closure. Thats what I been wanting for the past 1 1/2 now. So Im gonna be hearing more from him. Speaking of closure, since I have closure I have been talking to someone that makes me extremely happy. His name Jared...whoop whoop baby hahaha. Dread head, light skin, tats top to bottom on the arm. Funny as shit. Thats basically what I've been waiting for. For Valentines day, I got 2 teddy bears from him which kinda caught me off guard becuz he seem so thuggish for that shit. Hell, Im too thuggish for that shit. lol but anyways all is well...i'll be back soon